I'm so glad It's over. Now I can focus. But it's bittersweet to know you still suffer. There's a reason to every little rhyme. Now that you see it's not worth it, how will you buy your way out of this one? You've drilled yourself far beneath my feet. And you scream but your lungs cannot reach me. Down there you've got pots and porridge. I'd let down a rope if I had one to spare.

This morning

I woke up at 9am to a hail of sirens. Usually I would just try an ignore it and force myself back to sleep, but I couldn't this time. It wouldn't stop... Like a hundred sirens going off and it just wouldn't stop!

So I get up and go outside and see cruiser after cruiser after CRUISER slowly driving through the intersection, like there was a parade of cops or something.. I stand there and watch as car after car roll by. one minute.. two minutes.. it never ended! It's like when you're the first one to get stopped at a train crossing, "Time to pull out a book.." and they all had their sirens on going 5 mph through town.

So I look around at other people, and everyone's going about their business like nothing's going on. I'm a pretty hard sleeper, this shit woke me up and forced me outside, and you're going to continue playing tennis and doing laundry like nothing's going on?! Am I fucking dreaming or what?!

Shit like this happens all the time (anytime I'm forced to wait in order to keep doing what I want i.e. traffic jams, train stopping ont he track right in front of me, etc.), and honestly I don't care as LONG as I know WHY. So I come back inside and go online and look at the news. Nothing. Nothing as to why 200+ cop cars are strolling through town in a single file line with their sirens blaring like an air raid siren... I mean cmon... 9am on a saturday? fuck cops, man.