@least

i'm THIS close to running off.
or blowing my head away, whichever.

EVERYONE in my life is settling for less.
well, not everyone.. more like 99%

why am i searching so hard for something i know might not last anyways?

when i was young, i didn't mind being alone. now i can't even get a reply. (not just from you)

i'm fucking pathetic... but.............

atleast i'm not doing heroine.
atleast i'm not wasting my money on things i want.
atleast i have talents.
atleast i'm funny.
atleast i'm young, tall. smart.
atleast i'm an optimist. (thank god)
atleast i have friends, even if I think they're fucking crazy.
i'm crazy too.
atleast i qualify for unemployment.
atleast i make my mom proud.
atleast i have realistic goals, and i'm actually working towards them...

(sigh)

It's just been hard...